Insider Attack
Insider Attack is about how I fell back into a difficult place during an abusive relationship, recognising the pattern from previous experiences before the worst could happen.
VERSE 1
I thought I saw a ghost
I’m fragiler than most
I don't know where to go
If I'm not safe at home
I thought you had my back
But it’s an insider attack
Tell me more what insight I lack
PRE-CHORUS
Coz I keep finding myself back here
Once again I’ve disappeared
CHORUS
Now I've rejoined the shadows, so hide me in the dark
Then no one can see it when you go and leave your mark
Teach me I deserve it, show me I’m the worst
Maybe I'll believe you, I already know I'm cursed
VERSE 2
I feel most alone
In the moments that you're home
You show me that I'm owned
I'd rather be alone
Somehow I hold hope
That I'll one day learn to cope
Coz I’m scared to leave you all on your own
CHORUS
Now I've rejoined the shadows, so hide me in the dark
Then no one can see it when you go and leave your mark
Teach me I deserve it, show me I’m the worst
Maybe I'll believe you, I already know I'm cursed
BRIDGE
Is this a projection or am I really in hell?
I'm now so used to hurting that it's far too hard to tell
Trusted you to stay the person I thought I knew well
That's your spell
CHORUS
Now I've rejoined the shadows, so hide me in the dark
Then no one can see it when you go and leave your mark
Teach me I deserve it, show me I’m the worst
Maybe I'll believe you, I already know I'm cursed